As I began to read and understand the Holy Quran, my concept of life began to change. I suddenly had a change of heart.
As I began to read and understand the Holy Quran, my concept of life began to change. I suddenly had a change of heart.
Salaams to everyone, it’s been a while so I decided to take some time to truly reflect on life. Seeing so many deaths all over the world has taught me to be grateful to the Almighty and appreciate our lives on earth even more.
Being a recent revert, I experienced Qurbani for the first time. It was a memorable moment in time for me, as I now understand the meaning of the word sacrifice.
I was able to fast leading up the Eid Al-Adha but the beauty of the event was experiencing the sacrifice of the animal first hand. Sometimes we are all caught up in this materialistic world, and we forget to stop and give thanks to the Creator of this universe.
My personal story began when I experienced so many deaths of my family members, I simply didn’t know how to deal with my emotional issues plus interact with the real world. I was in a really dark place in my life when I was about to give up in life. I had been diagnosed with breast cancer and honestly, I was quite fed up with life and struggling all the time.
Nothing made sense to me anymore. So I decided to go on a spiritual journey to really connect with the one true God. I felt as though I deserved some answers but little did I know that I would have gotten a big eye-opener. During my time alone, I desperately wanted some sort of divine intervention but it didn’t happen as I initially thought.
It started off as a dream indicating that “Allah is Merciful.” As I awoke from my dream, I didn’t quite grasp the concept of Islam as I didn’t grow up in a Muslim home with any Islamic teachings. So I began to research Islam on the whole. I had a craving to learn more about it and its teachings.
As I began to read and understand the Holy Quran, my concept of life began to change. I suddenly had a change of heart.
I wanted to see first-hand if these dreams were real. I did more online reading about the practices and I realized that my current life wasn’t different from that of a practicing Muslim. Doing good deeds has been my motto throughout my life.
I eventually took Shahada before Ramadan to experience the fasting leading up to Eid Ul Fitr. After the fasting, I received a great blessing. Before my cholesterol was high and there was absolutely nothing I could have done that was reducing it.
So after fasting, I decided to test it again. Low and behold, the pharmacist indicated that my cholesterol was so low that the machine couldn’t even give a reading, Alhamdulillah. I had to ask if the said machine was actually working. I just couldn’t believe my own eyes and ears.
I began to immediately give thanks to the Supreme Being and never would I doubt or question His tests for me in this life.
I eventually realized that life on the whole is a test. It is how we deal with our issues that make us different from the rest. Lots of people turn to materialistic things for help and sometimes expect that people should help them in life but that is not always the case.
I have learned to place my full trust in Allah (SWT) and I believe that He is the one who is in control and He and He alone will deliver us from any situation or difficulty that we may be facing in our lives currently.
I just needed a proper sense of direction in my life which Allah (SWT) has indeed provided for me for which I am eternally grateful, Ameen!
